What a hideous day! After smoking four cigarettes before 10.00, completing a small bit of work, I put myself to bed and stayed there for the whole day. Now that in itself is a lovely treat, not worthy of complaint, surely!? Apart from the two hours that I slept for, I fought with myself because as I told you earlier, Dozy W was due to visit – so the conversation with myself went, ‘Stay up here and then you won’t smoke … no, I’ll be okay, I just won’t smoke … maybe one toke? … maybe a spliff and one for later? … no, I’m abstaining through choice, I will be strong … no, you won’t … yes, you will’ and on and on and round and round it went, until 5.55, the devil was due at 6.00. Up I bounced and went downstairs to have a spliff and that was that – and I’ve got more than one for later/tomorrow. Shit!! That means my abstinence will have to start again tomorrow/Saturday. At least I haven’t scored = one week tomorrow.